by Mary-Chapin Carpenter
on The Essential Mary-Chapin Carpenter
This song reminds me of my mom. I’ve been missing her so much lately. I’ve been struggling a lot with coming to terms, I guess, with the fact she’s been gone over two months now. I can’t believe that. My boyfriend and I drove down by the water yesterday to see the ice boats and I remembered how she and I would take drives downtown all the time and I just lost it. I miss her so much and I’m tired of bottling it up.
I can’t handle it when I get to thinking about it too much that I’ll never be able to have a conversation with her again, give her a hug, hear her voice. I can’t even explain the amount of pain it brings me. It’s like something heavy standing on your chest.